today is Monday.
CCA open house was a success.
met a JC1 girl who was a former president of her seconday school chinese orchestra.
her movements , hairstyle, height, spec, accent and way of communicating with others is way too alike with yours.
i wonder if every sec female CO president act and live that way.
very very alike, almost the same.
amazing and surprising.
only different is that she played the pipa (: damm pro.

got 2 riverside girl left me with the deepest memories.
they spend half their afternoon in the co room listening to the others practice.
and they even request songs and such.
her enthusiasm left a deep marked in my mind.
will she continue maintaining this attitude?
jia yee, and jia en.
sounds like twins but they have different surname.
cool..

my phone is out of order.
the screen just wun show anything except pitch black.
so i wun be able to take photo and post in my blog. sorry readers.
i will get a new phone after CNY alright.
now too busy to go get it.
test all coming up, cant afford to lose out or fail again.
although JC2 liao they dun count test into CA and it does not include in the A levels.
but den still must give in all my best, or else how to prepare for A levels. right? !

decided to grow some cactus or daisy , got myself a box that have enough space to plant it. hopes it will grow.
maybe tml go buy some seeds. soil and such (:
cause i can talk to it when no one is there to talk to !
lol. sometimes in the middle of the night , i woke and cant fall back to slp.
den i go out sing and talk to my mum plants.. lol
her flowers and my dad pandan leaf.
lol.
i gonna grow my own plants and talk to it!!! upon having this idea in my mind makes me feel excited. its like. oh yeah!! i finally gonna have my own plants !! LOL !!!

save money save money save money ! last holiday never work, this year gonna spend thrifty.

i really dun like it. wads with that attitude lol.. looks idiotic.
lol. i guess the only thing that i hated today is that stupid look by that particular adult..

twins. i donnoe how liao ><
driving me crazy~ oh insomnia ~~~~~~~~~

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:07 PM

found this while viewing through the box of gifts and memories
(:

我曾认真试爱着一个人
他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生
他只是给我一个吻

快乐我哭是因为你的手
曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手
找不到你说的以后

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后
像坏的眼泪慢慢流

快乐我哭是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流

有好的笑容陪着我

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:06 PM

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人都怕变得沉默
找不到命中注定在一起的人以后
很多人都笑我
一个人过生活

爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁

爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人
在等我的 永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她



My chem teacher said before.
"can we say that because it is painful so we dun go and do it?"
answer is obviously no.
actually i think that this can apply to many things
no matter it is studies or family prob, friends arguement, relationship prob.
study is kinda tough at times, but we cant say that we dun do it.
quarrel between family members or friends is unavoidable at times, and being the first to acknowledge does not means that u are weak, or everything is really your fault. it is just that you care about it. it is precious to you. thats why you dun mind being the one that take a step back first.
life is full of uncertainties. you never know what happen next.

at the same time , there will be someone who is in the state of happiness and unhappiness.
i just saw one example yesterday.
(:
the above paragraph is for you, you should know who you are !
now the below stanza .. for the one who is unable to be present on the "first day of new year" AH HAHAHAHAHA

happy happy happy happy happy happy happy uh.
can feel the happy aura from u all.
lol.
dammit, i also wan ..how? O.O
" its still not too late to change one ! "
too late la too late !! one of my resolve for this year is to let this year end first sia. lol..... weird resolve. ok nvm i noe u noe jiu hao . lol


TWINS ARH !
its ok , i think jus let it be, if not later. die. even more cui o.O
good luck to u and me , JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!


莎 士 比 亚 说 : 再 好 的 东 西 都 有 失 去 的 一 天 。 再 深 的 记 忆 也 有 淡 忘 的 一 天 。 再 爱 的 人 ， 也 有 远 走 的 一 天 。 再 美 的 梦 也 有 苏 醒 的 一 天 。 该 放 弃 的 决 不 挽 留 。 该 珍 惜 的 决 不 放 手 ， 分 手 后 不 可 以 做 朋 友 ， 因 为 彼 此 伤 害 过 ！ 也 不 可 以 做 敌 人 ， 因 为 彼 此 深 爱 过

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 6:22 PM

ok, thats it. zzz
i have no absolutely no idea what the hell you are thinking.
its like u are playing a game, and the only piece in the game is destiny.
may there be one day when u will get burn and suffer under the hands of destiny.
AH HA !


i suddenly remember my principle said.
actually ~ JC is quite a fertile ground.
lol, know what it means? hahahahahhaha
i wonder whether PJC is an arable land , and i wonder has this land ever bear any fruits. o.O maybe yes? or else why would she say that JC is a fertile ground.
hahahs


today is my grandma birthday, due to the fact that my family is not very close to other relatives and we seldom meet them, until today then i realize i had a very beautiful cousin o.O its like, wow. cool. who is that girl o.O
voice damm sweet and figure damm good .
where is she hiding all along !!
lol....


jus finish my assignment and went to youtube and search for self hypnosis video.
its like all of them are not working to me.
maybe i have a strong mind? lol


THATS IT ! U SHOO . I GOING TO SMACK U AWAY !!! AH HAHAHAHHAHAA

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:08 PM

its the second week since school has started
everything is fine but time seems not to be enough.
so many things to do and yet , so little time.
time management u say?
it don't work (:

i think i have a affinity with fish bone... today i ate the YU PIAN MI FEN TANG !
the fish suppose to have no bone de leh, but i still eat dao fish bone.
lol. den jus now eat dinner, ate salted fish, den eat dao bone again. lol ... dammit

I WANT TO STUDY !!!!!!!!!!!!
ah ha.

had handball for P.E today.
our team name has been finalize. KIMCHI WARRIORS !!
lol , sounds cool to me. (:
next P.E is this thursday
going to have canal run.
first trial for 2.4Km run.
zz.

MCPEGP
MATHS CHEMISTRY PHYSICS ECONOMICS GENERAL PAPER !!
like econs, dislike maths. zzz....
cause not miss ong teaching . LOL !! AH HA!!!
chem ok, phy ok.
gp can lame abit more. lol...

all plans are jus hope and dreams unless commitment is made.
saw this sentence at school. true ! (:

finish zi mei gui last week ? or last last week
any new shows? lol.

boring life ~
LOVING BLACK AND WHITE!!!
AND TTS ALL FOR NOW ~ BLACK WHITE BLACK WHITE BLACK WHITE BLACK WHITE

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 8:21 PM

女孩捧着饭盒呆呆的站在男孩的后面,看到了他开心的在键盘上打字,和他的传奇老婆诉说着绵绵情爱,女孩的心揪了一下,但她还是告诉自己,这只是网络而已.她把饭盒放在男孩的桌边说:"快点吃,凉了就不好吃了."男孩头也没抬的恩了一声,继续他的情话大奉献.女孩默默的走了.

　　此刻已是凌晨2点,女孩叹了口气,她已不奢望男孩会送她,但却连一句叮嘱的话都没有.她宽容的一笑,回家了.

　　事隔数月———

　　女孩说:"看着我的眼睛说你背叛了我们的爱情,说啊你!"

　　男孩说:"不,我没有,我只是说她要来看我,仅此而已,我说不让,她偏要来,她也知道我有女朋 友的,明天下午她就会来这个网吧了,她说只是来看看我!"

　　女孩说:"只是来看看吗?你把网络爱情覆盖到我们5年的感情上了吗?我能和她聊聊吗?"

　　男孩说:"我没有,我没有...她也说想见见你!我说了不去接她,因为你在,她自己来!"

　　第二天下午3点整,男孩的传奇老婆准时出现在了网吧里,男孩唤她雪,雪很漂亮,很有朝气,今年才18岁,比女孩整整小了5岁.雪的视线穿过男孩落在女孩憔悴的脸上,互相微笑,没有任何敌意.女孩示意男孩回避,男孩知趣的坐回电脑前继续他的传奇,女孩牵着雪坐在了旁边的椅子上.半晌的沉默后,雪大胆的开口了:"我爱他,不限于网络里的爱."

　　女孩:"爱不是激情,不是冲动,你了解他吗?或者说你了解你自己吗?"

　　雪: "你们之间已经没有爱情了不是吗?为何不好聚好散?"

　　女孩:"呵呵,那我给你先说十件事你听听!"

　　雪: "你说.我先听着."

　　女孩把视线对准了男孩,男孩马上把竖起的耳朵收了回去.女孩笑笑,拉回了视线说:

"第一,他是个特爱懒睡的人,每天早晨起码要叫20遍他的名字,他才会乖乖起床,出门之后他从不会自己买早餐,所以你每天都得为他做好早餐看他吃完了才放心.他就是这么漫不经心的人,不会照顾自己.



　　第二,他沉迷传奇不可自拔,每天晚上在家里玩的时候,大呼小叫的,从不把别人的睡眠放在眼里,而且第二天你总是要面对邻居的奚落,不停的道歉.



　　第三,他的朋友很多,每次一起吃饭首要任务就是喝酒,他的身体不身好,喝白酒的量是7两,喝啤酒的量是4瓶,超过了可不行,他会醉的,醉了别人都会喝茶,可他一喝茶就吐个没完,很伤胃的.



　　第四,他是个足球迷,每四年一次的世界杯,两年一次的冠军杯,或者欧洲杯,还有每个星期的意甲,足球天下,英超什么的,他都不会错过,三更半夜的爬起来看球赛.等他看完,你必须爬起床来收拾那电视机旁的垃圾,还有厨房里被他翻得乱七八糟的饭菜.



　　第五,每年的秋天一到,他的眼睛被风一吹就会不停的眨,流眼泪,因为他的风很重.你知道他得吃什么药吗?5年来,每年都给他喝那药,可他却从不知道那药是什么药,什么名称.



　　第六,他的手一到冬天就会裂开,不是冻疮,是他体内缺乏一种维生素,不能治本,只能治标,要涂在手上的药膏和吃的药丸你知道是什么吗?他也不知道,因为他从不会自己吃药,每次都要拿到他手上,他才吃!



　　第七,他是个死爱面子的人,朋友在一起,难免有人喜欢拿谁或者谁的女朋友开玩笑,无论有多委屈,多过分,都不能当他朋友的面表露出来,朋友对他来说是最重要的.



　　第八,有时他总是不回家,或者是在网吧通宵传奇,pk是他的爱好.有时和现实里的朋友三五成群聊天到天亮,要不三更半夜敲门,告诉你他"乖乖回家了"



　　第九,我相信他绝对不是个花心的人,就算他的朋友背着自己的女朋友在外面泡别的女孩,他也不会这么做的,因为他在乎的是两个人在一起的感觉,而不是满足自己所谓的男人的欲望.



　　第十,总的来说,他算是个好男人,就是太马虎,不知道照顾自己,像个大男孩.呵呵,他开柜子拿衣服绝对会忘了关掉柜子,开抽屉拿火机绝对也会忘了关掉抽屉,你不跟在他后面,怕是他出门都会忘记关门的. 这些你都了解吗?你都能做到吗?爱一个人到底该怎样你觉得呢?"雪说:"点点滴滴的爱会在任何人身上留下痕迹,你已经水滴石穿,字字句句,我无处容身."

　　男孩此时已退出传奇,女孩的每句话都敲在他的心头上,是啊,5年的感情啊,她太了解他了,他的缺点,他的优点,他的喜好,他的一切都被她看在眼里,爱在心里.5年来,为什么他从没发现过自己是这么糊涂的一个人,要不是一直有女孩在他身边,他的生活会糟糕成什么样子.看着自己身上衣服, 裤子,鞋子,袜子,他甚至都不知道为何总能这么整洁干净,为何他从没拿过锅铲,却能每天吃到美味的饭菜,为何自己以前不是这里不舒服就是那里痛的,可是这 5年来,他总是吃女孩安排他吃的东西,却感觉自己那么健康,为何他的朋友总是羡慕他,为何他感觉和女孩之间的爱情变得这么淡了,为何他会对网络上的美眉释放感情,因为太平静了,他们几乎没有过什么争吵,因为女孩的一直退让,迁就,默默的用生活中的琐碎来爱着他!他突然明白为什么有人会说真正的爱情不是山无棱,天地合,才敢与君绝,而是相濡以沫的理解和宽容.男孩转过头凝视着女孩,很多年了,他不曾仔细看过女孩的脸超过5秒,第一次他发现以前那个活泼,靓丽的少女如今已经成为一个成熟,优雅的女人了.

　　男孩站起身来走到女孩的面前说:"你怎么老了?我刚发现哦~~~呵呵!老婆,我们一起陪雪好好玩玩吧,她难得来一次."雪会意的笑道:"不用了,我就走了,你是个好男人,更有个好老婆,相信哪天我也会像她一样爱一个人,只是那个我爱的男人一定不会是你,因为你不是我的."说完,雪转身离开了,她的泪像道美丽的彩虹,在她转身的那刻划出了优美的弧度!

　　女孩始终保持着礼貌的微笑,也许她的心曾被狠狠的割伤,但她的冷静,睿智挽回了这段苦心经营了5年的感情.男孩轻轻的抱着女孩,闻着她的发香,5年了,女孩秀发上的香味没有变过,正如她一直爱着他的心没有变过,她的发丝还是这样细腻柔滑,也如她经营的这份感情一样和谐温柔.男孩笑着问女孩:

　　"老婆,你给我吃的药到底是什么药啊?我真的到现在还不知道呢.""不想告诉你,因为只有我知道,你离开我说不定会活不下去哦,呵呵~~"

　　"是啊,我也觉得好恐怖哦,那我不是被你软禁一辈子了啊?""怎么你才知道吗?谁让你这么不安分的啊?观音菩萨都会给唐僧一个治那猴子的秘方,所以老天爷看我可怜,也帮了帮我呀."

　　"对了,老婆,你不是从不看足球赛吗?为什么你会对4年一次,2年一次,甚至每个星期的足球赛事了解得这么清楚啊?"

　　"哎...近墨者黑啊,谁叫你连传奇号的帐号密码都是那个叫什么巴蒂斯图塔的啊!""啊~~~~你这也知道啊?不要偷我装备哦.为了我的财产也成为你的财产,我决定..."

　　"决定什么啊?"

　　"明天是星期天,不知道民政局会不会有人上班啊,为了保险我的装备,我决定明天去和你拿个爱情证书,让我们的财产成为共同的,那样你就会好好爱护了,哈哈!"

　　"你求婚还要变个花样出来是不?我还不想嫁给你呢."

　　男孩突然抱起女孩,狠狠的吻住她的小嘴,女孩赶忙推开,小脸通红,尴尬的看着周围人的视线,都把他们当成了焦点.男孩大声的质问女孩:"嫁不嫁给我?不嫁我今天就在这里表演长吻."

　　说完,男孩又把女孩抱住,女孩开怀的笑着说:"嫁啦,嫁啦!我都等了5年了.傻瓜……"

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:23 PM

白痴。

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 10:09 PM